Nothing could have prepared me for the stability and security of my job, as well as the rejuvenation and fresh start each school year allows. Honestly, I don't know if I will be able to quite put my feelings and thoughts into words, but I definitely have an appreciation for my career, my colleagues, and my students for what they bring to me.
Financial Stability
In my previous marriage, by former husband lost his job several times. Fortunately, with my stable job (with health benefits), our family was never in jeopardy. I feel truly blessed that I could not only pay back college loans in 3 years but also complete my Master's degree prior to starting a family. This certification requirement by our state was necessary in the first five years of employment, but also put me higher on the pay ladder in our district. At the time, it was frustrating, but in the long run, it's been a blessing.
With my divorce from my former husband, I fortunately was able to keep not only my house, but also (roughly) the level of comfort our family was accustomed to. This helped tremendously with the upheaval in my kids' lives in that they could still attend summer camp, scout events, and extra curricular activities as they navigated their new reality. I would not have been able to do this without my stable job. Hands down.
Parenting Security
With my career as a teacher, I was able to have two maternity leaves with an extended summer vacation, and return to my job with a new crop of students in the fall. My colleagues were supportive and understanding when I had sleepless nights due to cranky kids (my teenage students, surprisingly also gave me a wide berth when I was honest with them).
Because I work in the town I also live in, and the school my kids attend, I also was able to be both involved in their school lives on field trips or special events, as well as give them space when they needed it (like NOT chaperone the overnight field-trip or chaperone the 8th grade semi-formal upon their request, much to the disappointment of the organizers). Occasionally, gym sneakers or lunch money was left at home and it WASN'T retrieved. Sometimes, a lesson to be learned, with tears, but resulted in more responsibility as the kids got older. I sometimes wonder if there was another school in the district to be transferred to, would I? I think that would have been a long pro/con list to weigh.
However, the best thing is that my kids also know, without me saying, that school IS important. Work (home or class) is NON-NEGOTIABLE because school is your JOB. We all make choices, and have to deal with the ramifications of those choices. And you may not get along with everyone, but you have to make it work. And, of course, I also take on the role of surrogate parent to all my students, and hope that THEY also can absorb some of these ideas during our time together. Teaching also gave me LOTS of parenting practice with the adolescent age group. Not that I'm perfect by any means, but I've already learned from the mistakes I've made with all the students that have come through my class... so maybe I won't make as many mistakes with my own kids.
Emotional Security
Because I have worked in the same district for my entire career, I have had the pleasure of working side-by-side with some of my colleagues for as much as twenty years. I have attended bridal showers, baby showers, christenings, graduation parties, weddings, retirement parties, hospital rooms, court rooms, wakes, funerals... we have been around at our best and our worst. Sometimes being just an open ear or just a shoulder to cry on. A voice of reason or a devil's advocate. And I have taken advantage of that when the roles have been reversed as well. Some of my colleagues who work in other buildings I don't see as often, but when we do get together, it's as though we haven't been apart. Old friends, often with a common goal - educating the kids we see every day.
I also know that students have impacted ME emotionally in many ways. In the trying times during my divorce, my homeroom gave me a reason to come to work and often their innocence and enthusiasm changed my mood for the entire day. The best part is that they had NO IDEA of the positive energy they gave me. We often as teachers talk about how students thrive on stability, scheduling, and order. And how vacations and the end of the school year is quite difficult for some to leave that consistency and safety. I truly think it goes in both directions. I also thrive on the enthusiasm and energy of a room full of teenagers, even when drama and angst raise its' head. I wonder if that is the true fountain of youth - just simply being around that energy!
I am truly thankful for Mr. Sheridan, my first department chair. Who hired me based on my firm handshake (Dad was right!) after a phone-call interview while I was working at a camp in West Virginia. I remember that phone call too - I was standing in my bathing suit at the pool at the only pay phone at camp. Good thing SKYPE didn't exist then. Mr. Sheridan gave me the opportunity to take on a classroom as well as give me an enthusiastic model to follow. He has since passed-away from Brain Cancer. A loss to the education community, but a legacy that lives on.
Fresh Starts
Every fall, I get a new start with a new set of students. My classroom gets to be reorganized. Systems get to be reevaluated and put into place. Old habits can be broken. And what's nice about that is that the KIDS get that fresh start too. Which of course is easier said then done, especially with teenage angst and personality development.
Regardless, I love the fact that, even though I've been at this for (YIPES) twenty years and still can find something fresh and new to improve upon. Admittedly, my to-do list of revamps tends to be overwhelmingly large each summer, but the ideas that are there may take a while to come to fruition.
I am GRATEFULRegardless, as I consider where I have been and where I am going in the midpoint of my career - I am very thankful that I chose education as my path I have been a part of thousands of children's lives and (hopefully) impacted their lives in some way. I know I, and my colleagues, have learned and continue to grow from our students energy. I can't see myself being anywhere else but in the classroom. Let's see what the next twenty years brings!
